I had a really deep conversation with my best friend. She just made me realize so many things. All these things everyone has been trying to tell me. Things that I ignored and pretty much never really listened to. I don’t know. Crying myself to sleep almost every night is not the shit and I don’t even know why it’s happening so often, I don’t even know why it happens at all. I’ve gotten so emotional, especially as of late. I can’t really say for no reason cause then id be lying. Pretty much tired, and done with everything. I made two promises and I think I’m too much of an emotional wreck inside to actually go through with those. I’d probably end up breaking one or another through this process, who knows? Maybe even both. But I’m sorry if I do. I just can’t take things anymore. I know I seem fine most of the time but there’s just times where I just randomly shut down and everything irritates me, bothers me, gets on my nerves, times where I want to punch someone in the face and just throw stuff. I don’t know if I’m strong enough to actually do this but it’s time to actually put effort into myself, I know I sound selfish but I’m not happy. I’m fine, I’m okay, but I’m not happy. I need to let myself breathe and I need to give myself space and time. I’ve been clueless for so long I still am. I’m still confused on what I should do, more on what’s right or wrong. I don’t really want to make the same mistakes I made before. But, I really don’t know. One way or another, there’s something I’m going to sacrifice. Like, try asking yourself. You or me? It’s so hard to decide. Well now it is. Since everyone’s been telling me things. Before, I was so sure about my decision but this is so hard, how can I not have a hard time, how can I not just start crying in the middle of the night? I want to know. Someone please show me how. Because I’m not strong enough to hold myself up…
daily reminder not to reblog missing people posts unless you actually know who the person in the photo is and that they really are missing, there are shitheads out there who look for people hiding from them. an abusive husband found his wife and child through such a post. they were under protected identity but he found them through a missing person post online.
holy shit noted
You can’t force love. You can’t control how someone else feels. You just have to enjoy it while it lasts and hope the ride doesnt end.
it’s always moment like this that adds more reasons to ship them
do you ever wanna talk about a thing but you know you already talk about it too much and your friends are sick of hearing about it so instead you just hold it all inside you and constantly feel like you’re gonna burst?
do you ever wish you could just stop time for like a couple weeks so you could just sleep and do whatever you want and just get your shit together and then after that time would just start back up again and you wouldn’t have missed anything because you would just pick up where you left off
“I’d die for her. I love her so much. I don’t know what I would do without her. She’s going through a lot right now. I wish I could just kiss away the pain, make it go away, stop it, kill it! If she, you know, I don’t know what I would do. I’d kill myself. I love that girl. I love her. I love her almost more than I love myself.”-
— Johnny Depp on Winona Ryder